Im fallin from the cloudsIm being such an EMO fuck today. I just dont know why.
Maybe i happen to be staying home the whole day today eventhough its saturday.
I aint got a life i know.
If lingzhen is finishing work early, she said we could hang out and chill. But i guess she is not.
And i could have asked some ppl who are free out today.
But i just didnt feel like taking the initiative to. I wanna hide in my shell.
Actually, i thought i was fine and wont cry over him anymore.
I realised i still couldnt make it till that stage whereby i could pretend we could still be good friends or whatsoever kind of relationship we are currently in.
I MISS HIM ALOT TODAY. Trust me i really do.
Maybe it was just all the PMS and EMO shit that got me tearing today on my bed.
And i asked him is he getting him a back a gf after enjoying for awhile the single feel; Or is he intending to be single all this while.
His straight reply was : ALL THIS WHILE.
So tell me; what more can i ask for on my behalf. NOTHING.
Then it made me questioned myself why am i doing all these with him. I mean we are like merely friends and friends dont dont dont do all these.
Stanley said it looks as if we are still together.
How i wish it was what he had said. But i knew it wasnt, will never be, and could never happen again.
Love me once again you ass. Dont make me love someone.
Later.
IM A FUCKING EMO FUCK WHO FUCKS ANYONE THAT FUCKS ME FOR FUCKING REASON.