I want nothing; But money

Im hard on cash. And, i feel pathetic. ):
So many people's birthdays coming up. I guess it would be a cash-less month once again.
AHHH!

Hasnt been updating. DUH!
On girlfriend's bday, we surprised her with a big oreo cheesecake.
And, we played bua-the-cream-on-faces game. hahaha. (:
Gave her a handmade card and a pair of earrings. I do hope she loves it.
I received 2 kisses and big hugs in return. Not bad! hahaha.

Thurs was late night day. Eventhough the next day is sch day.
Intended to catch the movie rob-b-hood. BUT DANG!
I was careless enough to be so confident that the show is showing.
But, it was the timing for the next day. BAH!
So, had dinner and chilled tgt.
Got home at 2am. I dropped dead immd on the bed. (:

W25J is fine for the time being.
Besides this fucked up guy who irritates not only me, but almost everyone else who has eyes and ears to see and hear.
I just wish i could shut him up. STOP SPITTING MANDARIN BTW!

Come me in; Take my name

It's past 12am so it's officially....


AHHH IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU TML!!!

Im done with your lil handmade gifts. JUST YOU WAIT! hahaha. (:
I do hope you like it.

1.30am now and im not asleep yet.
How am i suppose to survive in school today then. DAMN.

Grade A for Maths and Science. Rather surprising. Maybe, its just luck. lol.

Waffles day today at PS with shoonie, ruth, chee, dara, yuki, maki, guo wei and chris.
Been 238718923721 years i ate waffles and it still taste as nice as ever. hahaha.

Okay once im done with one more thing i shall go sleep. Yawns.
HAHAHA.

Later.

The beautiful-lest; The smiles

Saturday:
Celebrated Yuki's 19th birthday over at holland V NYDC.
Chilled and slacked at 1 rochester.
Really cool place and nice embience.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN YOU HANDSOME THING THERE!

Sunday:
Singapore Zoogical Gardens.
Resembles so much of a small lil kid's childhood with so many cute animals.
I LOVE ELEPHANTS! I get all excited over them.
THe giraffes are adorable. And, the otters!
Too many to go on and on. Those monkeys such are funny.
Baboons do have swollen ass i guess. hahaha. AND, the male one was humping the female one.
LOL.

Dinner at Great World City.
And, went to the colourful bridge at riverside to chill.

Monday (Today) :
Pon school and stayed home.
Needed super duper alot of rest. Feeling super duper tired and dropped dead.
Plus, school is a guarantee-d boring place now with the additional of boring module like problem solving today.
AND, i happen to fall into the same team as leandra (SG idol for those who dunno) today.
AND, this kuku guy called Sebastian which i think he probably doesnt have money to have a proper hair cut that in turn, made him looked like a terrible messy girlie looking guy together with that haolian-ing attitude of his.
AND, heavy rain this morning.
AND, Jieying isnt going sch either. She ponning because Bacon is sick. Poor Bacon.

Most probably or in fact, im staying home today to have plenty of good rest.
Gonna finish up my taiwan drama series shows Dara introduced to me.
And, spend all my time munching on junk food. (which ive been doing since i woke up). (:

Later. Pictures for view.

It's beginning. And, i cant help it

It has only been 4 days, and the thing i fear is starting to haunt me.
Somehow, it felt different from what i used to experience in the past.
Maybe, i should just.. not expect so much and demand so much.
Im afraid to fail.

Quote: I feel weird without you in my life.
Quote: As in, i mean im nt used to not having you.
Me: Haha i didnt know im so important in your life.
Me: See! I am so irresistable. Lol.

I said these without smiling without laughing.
Actually, i share the same sentiments as you somehow a little.
I guess im too fucked up with school life, and it already made me dead.

IM TIRED. TIRED AND SICK OF EVERYTHING.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OTSUKA MASAYUKI
YOU HANDSOME THING! (:

Holland V NYDC later with my lovelies to celebrate for that dude. hahaha.
Then, drinking at rochester at night.

ZOO TML! I CANT WAIT! I LOVE ELEPHANTS. (:

Later.

Hate it; Drag it; Fuck it

IM DYING.
IM GOING TO BURST.
I HATE IT HATE IT HATEEE IT.
Fcuk.

First day of school and it feels like forever before school ends.
And, i was only truely happy when i get to see Dara toh Shoonie boonie moonie and all.

The blissed; Blessed and happiness.

I miss W24B terribly.
I never knew it would be this strong, THIS MUCH impact on me.

Maybe i should live in my own world and owned myself.
Maybe i was just being an EMO fuck.

I HATE SCHOOL! AND I DRAG IT TERRIBLY HORRIBLY NOW.
NOTHING! NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.. ANYMORE. ):

Mal-functioning brain without juice

Okay i hardly got time to blog.
I seem to be very free; Yet i feel busy.

Sunday night was stayover at friend's house.
Played Bomberman on PS2 and ate sausages for supper.
Bought chips and chocos to last through the night and slacked.

Monday afternoon was off to town for hair-cut for my friend by my hairdresser.
Had Far East chicken rice. Been ages since i ate that. (:

Monday night was stayover again.
SO last minute thing. Cabbed to friend's house at 1.30am. Crazy.
As usual, Bomberman and online.
Slept till late afternoon. hahaha. (:

Its 7.42pm now. And im smelly and all. 'JEAH'.
I think im meeting woodblock later. Need to cab home which means. DAMN.
Im hardly at home. And the days passes freaking fast.

2 more days and its sch reopening day. FCuk.
And, my new class W25J. No interest thanks.
The names of my classmates are so weird and maybe im too used to being at 4th floor.
Thank god though i didnt get thrown to W1. W2 still rocks. hahaha.
Haven found anyone else same level as me. Im a sad sad girl.
DUH!

Goodbye. Get busy.

Cute lollipops are love

I have found sth to love.
TA-DA! My new found friend. LOLLIPOPS.
Disney versions. I bought the mermaid and mickey one.
Okay more to go. (:

I feel like a small kid deprived of childhood. Who cares. hahaha. (:

















Its nice to suck. LOL. Pleasure of sucking. YES.

Woke up at nearly 5pm. DUH!
Shall continue my korean series. (:

Yesterday was macs day again.
Tonned till morning 6+ am before i got home and sleep.

Good Day.

Its this weird feeling inside me now. That makes me bothered

Settled some stuff and made clear to him certain things i should have said earlier.
But, I feel weird. Its like.. the feeling of losing sth which all along has been with you.
Yet, i dont have any tears coming down. I no longer had the urge to cry just like when i used to be at the down-est point of my 18 years of life.
Maybe, its becos i already feel the need to protect myself. To think for myself at times. To make decisions.
Somehow, I still feel kinda.. weird. A feeling i myself dont know how to describe.

I dont meant to lose my temper. I dont meant to be pissed.
I cant help it. Because im all cocked up and confused.
I cant give you a direct answer. And, things are not as simple.
I know you used to play a part in my life, and you seem to be my everything.
Right now, its time that we need. To fade off, to cool down and learn to be free.
Yes, i loved you before.
I feel the guilt, the pain and the sorrows. But, i have to.
I dont wanna leave you hanging there by the moment.
I dont wanna see you crying over things between us.
I dont wanna see you being emo and sad over stuff.
And, i dont wanna see you giving up on urself. I meant what i say. I hope it happens.

A hundred sorries and a thousand million apologies.
But i know all these cant cover up the hurt i left. Im still.. sorry.

Ikea is love
Ikea with Shoonie and Yuki just now.
I asked for their opinions. Now i have to decide on my own.
Either a risk taker, or a tame person.
But once bitten, twice shy.
And, once missed, there might be another time.
Im as confused and fucked up.
Spare me.

Bought a purple photo frame and shall decide what to do with it when i have the time.

I wanna be free.
Save me.

DUH! Lido tickets fades off. Lousy Shit

Does anyone keeps movie tickets? hahaha.
i LOVE to keep tickets. And, my tickets will all be in even numbers. (:
And and and, i LOVE no. 18. hahaha.

Im gonna make a video clip now after i blogged.
So its gonna be a fast entry i suppose. (:

Cancelled indochine drinking date with zhen ytd.
Wanna a girl talk with her but she didnt knew of it so she called along a guy friend.
A guy friend she newly made when she went tioman. -.-
Okay and that guy called along another guy friend.
Now that makes 2 guys and 2 girls out drinking. And, I only know zhen the girl.
So i wasnt really in the mood of socializing and smiling 'fakely'.
And so, i decided to cancel it and stay home to watch more episodes on my lovely samsoon. (:

Dara toh Dara toh i miss you.
Shoonie boonie moonie i miss you.
AND I MISS W24B. Duh!

GirlHWEN is having some sort of korean craze too.
As in, watching the shows. hahaha. (:

Meeting Shoonie later for Ikea. YES YES YES!! (:

Later.

Give me time. Prove me wrong.

Now, i think sometimes i really dont preech what i said.
Okay cos for the SIMS 2 PC game. Im pushing the deal back. HAHAHA.
I wanna catch finish my korean drama series my lovely samsoon first den decide.
Stanley Teo got me addicted to it. thanks bro. How NICE of you. -.-

Mon was town day.
Watched The Host and it happened to be a super lame show.
Yes! Although it doesnt seem so.
Some parts its so anti-climax then you just feel like throwing whatever it is in your hands onto the big screen that is right in front of your face. hahaha. (:
Shopped around Heeren and Cineleisure and ate at Graffitee cafe.
Wanton noodles and damn the green apple green tea there. It has a colourful insect floating on top of it and the auntie claims it to be tea leaves.
I think if she insisted i could have dig it out and shove it in front of her face.
Hahaha, but yeah. She changed it for me immd.
Got home and changed and went out to Pionner Mall Macs to slack.
Reached home at 3+am. DUH!

Tues was home-with-friend day. hahaha. (:
My friend came to my house and slacked.
But 90% of the time i was fast asleep on my bed. Darn tired.

Late night town-ing is boring on weekdays i suppose.
Spize and canal-ing is still the best afterall if you are left with nowhere else to go. (:

I will let you know.

Return to my arms and hold me tight

Its a boring Sunday. BAH!
Had been online the whole day. In fact, almost.

Im gonna save up to buy SIMS 2 PC game.
Been dying to buy it. No cash. But now, im determined to. hahaha. (:

My phone is kinda 'quiet' today.
I miss you. Yes.
Empty and blank space.

Town; Movie; Eat and slack tml.

Sep 11th tml. Remarkable terrorist attacks back then.

Later.

Its too long a wait

No intentions of going out today although its a weekend.
Being all alone at home and having late wake-ups.

Woke up at 4.18pm. DUH! Zzzt.
Had sleepless night last night.
Guess i must have been still traumatized and stunned.

Waiting for mum's wanton mee to be brought home for dinner.
I missed breakfast and lunch. BLAH!
Ate a slice of choco precious moments cake though.

I think somehow, its impossible for us to stop contacting.
Its so hard to. Cos we are used to it.

Dont fake it.
Im pessismistic. Fuck me.

Sleeping early tonight.
Got a date tml. The last one i reckon.

BANG-ED!
These are my loves. And, i miss them.

Goodbye my love; My dear friend

My mind is totally incredibly in a big mess and i cant think correctly.
My brain cells are all beating yet not functioning.

Im sorry, Babyboy.
Im not sure of my feelings till this very moment.

And, im preparing for the worse in days to come.
Reply me for christ sake.

For once in this life, i fell victim to love and hatred itself.
Its hardly beyond a man's control.
And, i dont blame anyone for that. Im a sinful girl.

Goodluck and much misses.

So much for love and marriage

I've got hundred and million thoughts rushing through my mind now and i couldnt exactly make up what im suppose to jot down here.

Its always an irony in life that what parents taught, they dont apply it back on themselves.

I was sleeping soundly when my ears caught hold of the bickering and shoutings.
I expected once again a fight or sth to break out as usual.
But somehow, this time round, it got worse than each time it happens.

My eyes hasnt even fully open when i could no longer lie down on bed and pretend nth is happening.
Obviously, my parents were about the kill each other i reckon.
I heard my dad banging the table and my mum screaming junks at the top of her lungs.
She accuses my dad of beating her. And, my dad scolded her 'jian gu tou'.
I hate man who insults woman when a quarrel is going on. Come on fuck you guys.
And, worse of all. My mum fainted and was panting like an enormous elephant.
Okay my sis and i got the shock of our life and we teared.
Yes, panic. And, shoutings. Thats all i could get hold of.
My mum had 3 ppl holding on to her and 1 blocking my dad.
I believe thats why they gave birth to 4 children. The more help we could offer.
Mum fainted.

She got so agitated i feel the pain in my heart.
All i could do was wipe away her tears and tell her to stop sobbing.
Tissue, medicated oil, pillow and all. Everything was in such a pathertic mess.
And, my dad was adding oil to fire when mummy was already lying there suffering.
He commented that it's the family's misfortune.
But i think is he has failed to maintain this marriage of his.
Cos i dont see him putting effort into it at all. And, he admitted himself he has no mood for spending just some time with my mum.
Let what my mum always says. She has a hard life, and she's suffering i know.

Just prayed hard things do settle down and the awkward silence to fade off.
They do need marriage counselling as much as my sis and i would suggest.

You will never unlock your heart and find the key to it if you are not sure of what you are looking for in the first place.
Fill me in when you found the answer And, i hope by then everything shall remain the same.

Sometimes, my life's is just like a drama. And, the ppl ard me plays the role.
I would rather have live in my own world and waste my life off.

Save the last dance

The sun rises when i heard fom you.
It's all surprising and it's all so sweet.
As i opened my eyes to feel the morning breeze,
Your face your smile your everything.
They rushes through my mind and i could feel the early adrenalin crush.

The birds chirped outside the cold window.
The mist covered the view i used to see.
As i breathe in the freezing morning air,
And touched the wet dews on the leaves.
You, are the one that came to me.

You are my sunshine; My only sunshine

Its 6.33pm and i woke up at 5plus in the evening. HAHAHA. (:
Another late night out. YAY.

Sam's mum need to use the com. So i brought my lappy down for her.
And, i reached in the late afternoon and played PS on the tv.
Puzzle fighter and puzzle bubble are loves. (:
Auntie treated me choco yam liquor mooncake. (Snowskin).
Tasted abit bitter due to the liquor. hahaha.

I've got fucking alot of mosquitoe bites on both my legs and its fucking itchy.
All the red polka dots as big as my thumb nail size are all over my legs.
Every min its SO SO itchy i scratch till bleed. Argh!

And, the fucking bitch in my house is barking like nobody business.
She's making a big fuss about not eating at home and my hp bill.
SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH.

Meet woodblock at valleypoint and went to spize to have dinner.
Banana and cheese prata once again with iced teh terek. hahaha. (:
Chit chatted till early morning and bought kinda bueno and kitkat frm ESSO tigermart.
Grumbled and stoned.
Mum was lying on the sofa when i stepped into the house and scared the shit outta me.
I had to creep and tip toe into the room and get changed etc before i pop into my bed and snored.

OMG my butt is itchy. I think im going out. Cant stay at home for nuts. I just dont know why.

My tears rolled down and tickled the cheeks.
The hurt is as though pins prickling my tender skin.

Late nights are fattening killers

Just had Tom Yum maggie mee AGAIN. like duh.
Its like 3am now and im eating. damn how fattening it could get tell me.
I need to do some exercise and shed off those excessive fats before i turn into hot air balloon.

My voice is very hoaste. Like a man's.
And it gets jerky at times i cannot make do what i was trying to say. hahaha.
My nose is giving me a hard time still.
It keeps leaking and it just wouldnt stop. Faggs.

Watched The Devil Wears Prada at Tiong today. Like finally. hahaha. (:
Had nachos which i hasnt eat in 2382190382 years.
And, went to Ikea to walk around and wait for time to pass.
Tried to search for a nearby clinic because the sickness is killer.
It reaches 39degrees already and causes body aches. Symtoms of dengue i know.
Cabbed back to Tiong and went to family clinic. 31 bucks..
So sick and so deadly. Bought bread and 100plus to cool down the throat.
Its so sore and infected it results in hard-time-swollowing of saliva. damn.
Also bought the 'coolfever' stickpad you put on ur forehead and go to bed to get better.
Home.

I think in this life i lied too much to be forgiven.
I hope in my next life i will be able to compensate somehow for these sins.
Forgive me.

I adore the sea; The splashing wind up on my face

I just got home and bathed. And, its 4.10am now.
Power, yeah i know.
Late nights out are love. (:

Caught a movie with JY at cineleisure.
Singapore dreaming was relatively fine with me.
I teared a lil when it comes to the funeral and how the mum recalled the dad wooing her.
It somehows relates abit.. to my mum's life. hahaha. DOH!
I haven caught The devil wears prada. Soon.. Soon. (:

Slacked awhile around cineleisure and ate XingWang HK cafe or sth.
Had baked rice with mushrooms. My love.
AND AND AND, I FINALLY ATE HAR KOW. Best man. (:

Decided to head for marina south.
Its cool there. Steamboat and all. (:
Proceeded to marina south pier and it was AWSOME I SAY SERIOUSLY AWSOME!
Okay its really really REALLY beautiful there with the lights and all.
And, the strong sea breeze you can feel hitting on your face and it seem like no worries in this world. hahaha.
It was really nice chatting and laughing away under the bright shiny stars. COOL har.
I should have knew the existance of this place million years ago man.

JY's parents picked us up and drove us for a drink at Tanjong Pagar Railway station.
NOW I KNOW, that's where shisha (Dunno how to spell) comes about.
I saw Mich's blog talking bout it and all her drunk pictures with 'shisha'.

Was being droved home and bided goodbye.

As sick as a jellybean

My throat is giving me a hard time. Its itchy and so hard to swollow my saliva.
And, my head. Its as if there is a huge rock right on top of it and i feel the weight.
And, its spinning and at any minute i might faint and just die there.
And, thanks mother nature; For those cramps.

Today was resting day. In fact, some sort of.
Woke up at 1pm when Sam reaches my house.
He bought sliced fish bee hoon for me.
And, i appreciated the effort to find pi pa gao for me. Yet, didnt manage to. haha. (:

I went back to slp after eating and he finds his own entertainment ard the house.
I reckon i need plenty of rest and regular slping hours back again. hahaha.
Served Friendster and stoned in front of com.
Watched Hi 5 and Winx Club on kids central. Retarded i know. (:
Mum cooked dinner and we ate together.

Oh, i drank liang cha made by my mum so i could recover faster.

Going out tml. I spent a day at home and my backside is rotting terribly.

Goodnight. SMOOCH!

Pictures; Love.

Dead fish eyes and backaches

My throat is sore. It felt icky whenever i swollow saliva. argh.
My back is aching.
My fingers are sour.
Im smelly and stinky.

Yesterday tried to start working on the data entry thing.
Manage to finish around 100 entries by 5am.

Cabbed down to Queenstown station to help my friend because he was half-conscious.
Went drinking without his keys. duh!
There goes 20bucks together with midnight charge.
I was still thinking of using it to buy sth for myself man. Oh well. nvm..
Helped him back home and took train back home this morning.

Terribly tired without a night's sleep.
Pounced onto my bed and snored till 2pm.
Continued rushing my data entry with Yuki and i won him! bwahahaha. (:
I swear those teeny weeny words and numbers causes my cock eye-ness can.
And, having to sit on the chair and stared at the freakin com whole day, i reckon my eyes shrunk 5cm and now its one line.
Finally done with it. (:
Proud of myself.

Off to Jurong Point soon to chill.
I cant stay at home for a proper day i dont get it.
Backside itchy. Need to go out. lols.

Lunch was fruity sweets and milk.
Dinner was rice with mushrooms prawns lady's fingers and steamfish. (:

I am a superwoman. Except the fact that i cant fly. hahaha.

Paperclips and paper rings

Just woke up from a short nap. Was really really tired.
Its 12.06pm now and i intend to start on the data entry soon.. soon..
Its not as easy as i thought it would be. I have no single clue on how to begin with.
Its like one whole chunk of words and i have to slowly pick up the information.
DUH. How can work possible be easy. hahaha. (:

Krunk last night.
Meet up with Shoonie Yuki Dara Maki Chris and Serena.
Had dinner first at harbour front hawker then, to Sentosa.
The party was so-so. No alcohol in fact; 18 and below. DAMN.
Such a spoiler without alcohol. Beginning was dull.
Some flash/flesh show going on and those 'models' parading around.

Dance floor was on the grass patch. And, the songs played were not as happening at the start.
There wasnt really a messy big crowd as imagined. But overall, its still fine.
Danced and wiggled and of cos, BUA my girls. hahaha. (:
The guys didnt move and were talking bout games. BLAH!
I reckon they are super bored. But i dont blame them. (:
In between headed to find Sam. He was around with his friends too.
Danced with him awhile and chatted with Layung at the baggage counter.
He was working that night for the organiser. 80bucks from night till morning. NOT BAD.
Bumped into quite a number of ppl i know of.

Let's see:
- Niven and a girl (lols)
- Nadia and Alison
- Peiqi and gang
- Shirong! (She hugged me (: )
- Kelvin and his friend Ivan
- Ian
- Michelle
- Layung

Okay thats all i remember of. And, Charles was around with his ang moh girlfriend but i dont spot him anywhere to say hi. hahaha.

Got pulled away by ang mohs to make friends. AND, that hand of his that shook my hand was oily! I run away. Who cares.
2 cute guys wanted to join us for a dance. I think Serena is attracting alot of guys. hahaha.
They were like, 'Excuse me can we have some space?' Okay nice way of asking. lols.

They were spraying foam and ribbons around the dancefloor.

Our feet were all muddy with harden-ed mud on them through the night.
Clever enough, we copied what the rest of the ppl do. We washed them in the fountain water before we left. Kinda inconsiderate we know. But since everyone is doing it.... hahahaha.

Shoonie and the rest left earlier because of work and flight to catch and stuff.
So left me and Dara. Kelvin asked us to join them since his friends left too.
So, we formed a new group.
Kelvin Ivan Sam Dara and me.
These guys are the guys who dances. hahaha. Cool!

It was only after the rest left that nicer songs started playing.
Shoonie gonna scream if she hears this. hahaha.
HER BUTTONS SONG!

Partied till around 4plus and shared a cab with Kelvin Ivan and Sam home.
Dara took another cab cos its not on the way i suppose.
Went to Pioneer Mall Macs to have breakfast with Sam cos i was hungry. (:
Walked home and slept till 2.30pm today.

Today
Meet Zhen and accompanied her to CCAB to pass things to her canoeing friends.
Took bus 174 and changed to 151 after that.
That place was so near Serene Centre and i went pass island cremery.
I missed the ice cream there! argh. Can we go again when we have the chance?
Passed by New Millenia Institute campus too. Not bad but i dont really fancy the colour of the building. Dark blue and white. What an off colour blue.

Cabbed to Queensway shopping centre with ZHen and meet up with Yuki.
He passed me the super-duper-scary-wordy book of data and i got a fright of my life.
Went to photocopy the pages and it seem like 192847839174093284 of them altogether. DUH!
Shit i dont know how am i suppose to be able to finish it by Mon.
Collection was at 630 so we went to eat BK at Ikea first. Bloated. (:
Yuki left and we shopped around.
Bought earrings and necklace from the bead shop. Hearts.

Zhen is going Tioman next Mon for 5 days 4 nights.
Im so envy of her.
And, Dara is going HongKong.
Im envy of her too.
And, Shoonie is going Korea at EOY.
Im super envy of her!
And, Sam is going Aussie at EOY.
Envy envy envy too.

I wanna go overseas!!! argh. neh neh pok.

Goodbye. AND SO LONG.