Its this weird feeling inside me now. That makes me botheredSettled some stuff and made clear to him certain things i should have said earlier.
But, I feel weird. Its like.. the feeling of losing sth which all along has been with you.
Yet, i dont have any tears coming down. I no longer had the urge to cry just like when i used to be at the down-est point of my 18 years of life.
Maybe, its becos i already feel the need to protect myself. To think for myself at times. To make decisions.
Somehow, I still feel kinda.. weird. A feeling i myself dont know how to describe.
I dont meant to lose my temper. I dont meant to be pissed.
I cant help it. Because im all cocked up and confused.
I cant give you a direct answer. And, things are not as simple.
I know you used to play a part in my life, and you seem to be my everything.
Right now, its time that we need. To fade off, to cool down and learn to be free.
Yes, i loved you before.
I feel the guilt, the pain and the sorrows. But, i have to.
I dont wanna leave you hanging there by the moment.
I dont wanna see you crying over things between us.
I dont wanna see you being emo and sad over stuff.
And, i dont wanna see you giving up on urself. I meant what i say. I hope it happens.
A hundred sorries and a thousand million apologies.
But i know all these cant cover up the hurt i left. Im still.. sorry.
Ikea is loveIkea with Shoonie and Yuki just now.
I asked for their opinions. Now i have to decide on my own.
Either a risk taker, or a tame person.
But once bitten, twice shy.
And, once missed, there might be another time.
Im as confused and fucked up.
Spare me.
Bought a purple photo frame and shall decide what to do with it when i have the time.
I wanna be free.Save me.