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Friday, September 15, 2006

EMBRACE ME IN YOUR ARMS; MY LOVE


Its this weird feeling inside me now. That makes me bothered

Settled some stuff and made clear to him certain things i should have said earlier.
But, I feel weird. Its like.. the feeling of losing sth which all along has been with you.
Yet, i dont have any tears coming down. I no longer had the urge to cry just like when i used to be at the down-est point of my 18 years of life.
Maybe, its becos i already feel the need to protect myself. To think for myself at times. To make decisions.
Somehow, I still feel kinda.. weird. A feeling i myself dont know how to describe.

I dont meant to lose my temper. I dont meant to be pissed.
I cant help it. Because im all cocked up and confused.
I cant give you a direct answer. And, things are not as simple.
I know you used to play a part in my life, and you seem to be my everything.
Right now, its time that we need. To fade off, to cool down and learn to be free.
Yes, i loved you before.
I feel the guilt, the pain and the sorrows. But, i have to.
I dont wanna leave you hanging there by the moment.
I dont wanna see you crying over things between us.
I dont wanna see you being emo and sad over stuff.
And, i dont wanna see you giving up on urself. I meant what i say. I hope it happens.

A hundred sorries and a thousand million apologies.
But i know all these cant cover up the hurt i left. Im still.. sorry.

Ikea is love
Ikea with Shoonie and Yuki just now.
I asked for their opinions. Now i have to decide on my own.
Either a risk taker, or a tame person.
But once bitten, twice shy.
And, once missed, there might be another time.
Im as confused and fucked up.
Spare me.

Bought a purple photo frame and shall decide what to do with it when i have the time.

I wanna be free.
Save me.

12:04 AM


♥ HELLO YOU
The BIG E.
Sweet eighteen

Love conspirated & victimized
HOT & Sauce-y leftovers
Explosive & traumatizing attitude


♥ MONEY MACHINE
; Braces.
; A puppy.
; Pandora's box - Dress
; Pumps
; Gold locket necklace.
; Black skinnies
; Puma / Adidas sweater / Le Coq Sportif sweater
; IPOD Nano.
; CASH.
; Prawning.
; Papilion / Birkies
; Holiday trip with pumpkin.
; JB trip with pumpkin.
; Catch a meteor rain.
; Slim down.



♥ SUN TALK





Pasts
loves, June 2006
loves, July 2006
loves, August 2006
loves, September 2006
loves, October 2006
loves, November 2006
loves, December 2006
loves, January 2007
loves, February 2007
loves, March 2007
loves, April 2007
loves, May 2007
loves, June 2007
loves, July 2007
loves, August 2007
loves, January 2008
loves, February 2008