So much for love and marriage

I've got hundred and million thoughts rushing through my mind now and i couldnt exactly make up what im suppose to jot down here.

Its always an irony in life that what parents taught, they dont apply it back on themselves.

I was sleeping soundly when my ears caught hold of the bickering and shoutings.
I expected once again a fight or sth to break out as usual.
But somehow, this time round, it got worse than each time it happens.

My eyes hasnt even fully open when i could no longer lie down on bed and pretend nth is happening.
Obviously, my parents were about the kill each other i reckon.
I heard my dad banging the table and my mum screaming junks at the top of her lungs.
She accuses my dad of beating her. And, my dad scolded her 'jian gu tou'.
I hate man who insults woman when a quarrel is going on. Come on fuck you guys.
And, worse of all. My mum fainted and was panting like an enormous elephant.
Okay my sis and i got the shock of our life and we teared.
Yes, panic. And, shoutings. Thats all i could get hold of.
My mum had 3 ppl holding on to her and 1 blocking my dad.
I believe thats why they gave birth to 4 children. The more help we could offer.
Mum fainted.

She got so agitated i feel the pain in my heart.
All i could do was wipe away her tears and tell her to stop sobbing.
Tissue, medicated oil, pillow and all. Everything was in such a pathertic mess.
And, my dad was adding oil to fire when mummy was already lying there suffering.
He commented that it's the family's misfortune.
But i think is he has failed to maintain this marriage of his.
Cos i dont see him putting effort into it at all. And, he admitted himself he has no mood for spending just some time with my mum.
Let what my mum always says. She has a hard life, and she's suffering i know.

Just prayed hard things do settle down and the awkward silence to fade off.
They do need marriage counselling as much as my sis and i would suggest.

You will never unlock your heart and find the key to it if you are not sure of what you are looking for in the first place.
Fill me in when you found the answer And, i hope by then everything shall remain the same.

Sometimes, my life's is just like a drama. And, the ppl ard me plays the role.
I would rather have live in my own world and waste my life off.